Only, Only, Only Grace


I am so tired

Of putting every finger and toe in the holes in the dike

I can’t keep doing this

They leak anyway

There are too many

And the pressure is so immense

The forces of evil and chaos are always pushing so hard to get through

My God, I am so tired

I know I should not be discouraged

I know I should focus on the positive

And there are positive things

But I can’t keep people passionate about you

I can’t make us into the band of soldiers we need to be for you

It feels like everyone is tired

And I can’t decide how to lead the charge

Instead I wander around in a well-intentioned haze

Loving everyone

Spending all my energy putting my fingers and toes in the holes

It feels like everything I touch turns to dust

It’s not enough

Am I like Simon the sorcerer?

Do I just want magical powers to help people?

Is it all about me?

Let me feel your grace like a waterfall on my head

Drowning me

Let me just have the hose with a spray

Directing grace their way

My efforts will do nothing

It’s only, only, only your grace

And your grace will move mountains, change hearts

Change the course of history

It does not stop

It has the power of a seed

That can grow to become a tree in which many birds can rest

Your grace is my rest

And I put all these people, all these needs

Into the waterfall of your grace

And I embrace my failings and inadequacies

Trusting that you will remake me

Like a little thin sprout

That will only, only only grow in You.

“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed”  (II Cor 4:7)

“All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of GodTherefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.” (II Cor 4:14-15)

“Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.  You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.”  (II Cor 9:10-11)

“For I am the least of the apostles and do not even deserve to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them–yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.”  (I Cor 15:9-10)

“I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow.”  (I Cor 3:6)

“continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.” (Phil 2:12-13)

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